DUH

The two people I am counseling with gave me homework....I have had to read The Sermon on the Mount twice already and I have to read it one more time. Each time I read I have to write down two or three verses that stick out to me. I don't know how many times I have had those chapters read to me or I have read them, but for some reason God is showing so much more than I ever saw before. "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself..." I've seen and heard that verse preached so many times, but when I read it for the second time today I had a "DUH" moment! Why I worry so much about the future, I don't know, and it will take some serious training of my brain to break away from that, but what refuge I can take in that verse. Oh, and I have a memory verse each week too....I don't think I have had to sit down and memorize verses since I was in high school. As overwhelming as monday was, and looking back at how much I just opened up, it freed me a bit to being more open to others. I think a big part of my anxiousness is knowing that I am holding things back from people that I am close to. I mean I am not going to go and tell every one I know about my past and the fact that I am going to counseling, but there are a handful of people who I think deserve to know....like three :) Just writing this and rereading it, I can see that more of my issue is guilt. It has actually been refreshing to nail that issue, cause I know that all I have to do is pray that away :) I am really excited to see how this process pans out....