Waiting...

It's been a trying few days. I think I spent the majority of the weekend in tears. Saturday afternoon I had to reopen some old wounds, but this time I am pretty sure it will lead to a final healing of the matter...so in the end they were tears of relief. I found myself welling up at the oddest times, probably no real reason. Women have that perogative and I chose to exercize it. Monday I took a mental health day off from work and it worked that I got my afternoon off as well.
Ok now what...still haven't quite processed all that went on this weekend. Time will heal the wounds.
I also have had that "what if" feeling for about a week...the maybe I am prego this time. As much as I want to run and get a prego test, I don't trust those mass produced over the counter tests anymore--they gave me a false positive a couple months ago and for someone who has been trying for so long, it wad a hard pill to swallow. So, I wait.