It Came To Pass...

This past week was...different, but not bad different, kind of interesting-yet-slightly-depressing-but-good different. Kind of impartial to the happenings, but happy and ticked off all at the same time. The week started off with my foot in my mouth and being real over emotional, couldn't get out out of my own way for a couple days...yet I busted a serious move on getting all my final projects and papers done for my classes that end TODAY! Then when my foot came out of my mouth, things looked up. My thoughts still overwhelming, but happy that I was able to channel them. Friday I went to the Dr because I have been having heart palpitations since December. But they did go away the whole week we were in FL for Christmas, it was relaxing so I attributed it to anxiety. They have been varying in intensity and length...one night it lasted over an hour. I do notice that when I focus my attention on something outside of my heart pounding, it eases. I was wary about going to the Dr because I knew she was going to be quick to put me back on my meds. I have been off them for over a year, and I praise God for that. In addition to writing my prescription, she ordered a bunch of blood work and 24 hours on a heart monitor. Talk about anxiety provoking...I have to wait til the middle of may for that, and then another two weeks for the results....meds aren't sounding so bad at this point. She is assessing my cardiac risk, which a piece of my really doesn't want to know what my risk is. Heart problems run rampant on my mom's side of the family, and are visible on my dad's side as well. But being that I am young, early detection is key I suppose. I kind of didn't want to see this past week end. This coming week is spring break from work, and that is good and all, but it always reminds me how close we are getting to the end of the school year. I love summer, but hate the whole having to find a summer job and not being in my "normal" school year routine. I hate leaving the kids for two months, I always ball on the last day. It has been up in the air the past month if we were going to move into another apartment. We have been less than satisfied with where we are at, and I do not like being on the ground floor. We applied to couple of places and it seems as though God wants us to stay put. I can deal with not packing up and having to move, but God is going to have to give me some serious grace to get through another winter in our dungeon. I have no idea what i am going to do with myself this week. I start new classes online, so they are usually pretty tame the first week and no real assignments are due yet. I have been working diligently at weeding through all the stuff that Tim and I have in storage....I have a pile in the living room and spare room that has to go back in storage, and tons of boxes and bags that are ready to be donated. I am pretty proud of myself since I got rid of over half of the stuff in our storage unit. I said all that to say, I came across this poem and it is awesome. It is gentle reminder of God's promise to never give us more than we can handle. Many times in His word He says "It came to pass...." It didn't come to stay...AMEN!!!

This Too Shall Pass
By Helen Steiner Rice

If I can endure for this minute
Whatever is happening to me,
No matter how heavy my heart is
Or how dark the moment may be-

If I can remain calm and quiet
With all the world crashing about me,
Secure in the knowledge God loves me
When everyone else seems to doubt me-

If I can but keep on believing
What I know in my heart to be true,
That darkness will fade with the morning
And that this will pass away, too-

Then nothing in life can defeat me
For as long as this knowledge remains
I can suffer whatever is happening
For I know God will break all of the chains

That are binding me tight in the darkness
And trying to fill me with fear-
For there is no night without dawning
And I know that my morning is near.